Yesterday was day 4 of the Live Below The Line challenge. It was the toughest day so far I would say. Although during the day I was OK the evening was very tough.
I found yesterday I had a lot of problems concentrating and could not focus. I would often forget what I was doing. This is the day that really made me realise just how your body and brain can not function without a proper diet. Although I have been able to eat three meals a day, (and actually I think I will have a surplus of food by the end of the challenge. Who would have thought?) the foods I have been consuming are filling, but not great for functioning.
Also by the late afternoon I have the lowest amount of energy I have had in such a long time. I was worried that on the 4th day would be tough as I had a huge amount of energy on the 3rd day and went to dance class, and I was sure on the 4th day I would crash. It seems that came true. Walking home after work I was not sure how I would never make it. I was walking very slowly and was feeling exhausted. By the time I got home I just wanted to sleep. By 9pm I was.
I am now totally bored of eating the same food each day. It becomes a chore and you feel like not eating. It is mentally tough to know that each day will be the same bland food which stops you feeling hungry but it builds a mental barrier that you have to work through. I have totally taken for granted how luck we are to have variety and the ability to enjoy food.
The routine, the blandness and the lack of energy really make you feel down. You can't be bothered to face the next day as you know everything will be the same. It is quite amazing how quickly you get into this mindset. I can not even imagine how people must feel when they feel like this everyday, with no end in sight. When you see images of children who are starving the one thing you notice is the deadness in their eyes. The lack of hope. These are children. Children in the UK's eyes are filled with wonderment, excitement and joy. This is what children should look like. To see that sadness in a child's eyes in heartbreaking. To know at such a young age they have given up hope, this is something that should never happen. Especially over such vital and essential elements of life like food and water.
I am very lucky that my challenge is almost over but I think what I have learned will stay with me forever.
Until next time, much love.
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